Jun
2010

Party of One

When I sit down to produce my show, I don’t think about the audience. I know they’re out there, but not in my studio. I sit with a director, audio operator, and usually one or two studio camera people. The hosts of the show, and the occasional live guests are the only other people I will interact with. So when I produce the show each night, it’s like I am making the show just for me. I sit down and the anchors talk to me. I push a little button and I talk back to them. Some nights I forget that I should wait to respond.

When I write, I go through the same process. I know you’re there reading the words, but I can’t think about you. I am pretty self-conscience to begin with. If I start thinking about you, I will enter a deep paranoia. I need to write for me, but deep down inside, I want to share it with the world. I don’t want to just write for the sake of performing an act, I want to do it well. I have a desire to entertain you.

If I’m not entertained each night as my show goes out, then no one else will be either. The same rule applies to my writing. If it doesn’t do anything for me, I know it’s a waste of your time too.

2 thoughts on “Party of One

  1. I completely understand. When I started my personal blog, I did it as a way for me to start writing again. I didn’t know if anyone would read it, but knew that if I wrote well and expressed what I wanted to express then many other people would read and enjoy it. It’s a gamble, and sometimes I know that no one will want to read what I’ve typed out. Every so often, though, I write a post that gets a bunch of hits. That small validation invigorates me and keeps me writing.

    For what it’s worth, I’ve been enjoying your posts so far and will keep checking in after this class is finished.

  2. I completely understand. When I started my personal blog, I did it as a way for me to start writing again. I didn’t know if anyone would read it, but knew that if I wrote well and expressed what I wanted to express then maybe other people would read and enjoy it. It’s a gamble, and sometimes I know that no one will want to read what I’ve typed out. Every so often, though, I write a post that gets a bunch of hits. That small validation invigorates me and keeps me writing.

    For what it’s worth, I’ve been enjoying your posts so far and will keep checking in after this class is finished.

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